wun be posting for next 4 days...

something realli funny to share... if u do pay attention to its lyrics...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfxOJsxeMX0

back to me... ill be realli busy over the next few days... cant help it... and i have little time to blog alrdy... so much to do yet once again so little time... but i had this question recently... after a whole series of events since holidays started... and its closely related to the meaning of life...

What are we pursuing in life?

bet you might have got stumped... never realli found the answer??? i mean, after all the setbacks and successes, will we have fixed goals in life? won't they change accordingly?...
the greedy pursue riches... the sexually wrong people pursue lust and sex... the overshadowed people pursue fame and glory... but of course these does not apply generally...

everyone's born with a different ideal all in all... and we are affected by changes... which is why i always lived by the fact that people are a result of their environment... what someone is is a reflection of his surroundings... one with bad influence turns bad... where one with good influence is good...

im not sure what im pursuing in life yet... i used to have a goal or dream but now its in doubt... in liability... because of people and things around... im no longer sure of what i hoped for before...

apart from this i have many experiences, two more topics, a seniors and a teachers column to write on... so much to blog but no time and many restrictions... i shall just include 2 of the above today...

A middleaged folk came to me that day...

And told me he had not enough money to take the bus, showing me 40 cents in his hand, and asked for a dollar... Of course i was like 90% no and 10% yes...

But i gave 40cents anyway, telling him i din have a dollar...

Some mite think im stupid... But its time to look from a different perspective...

If thats the truth, good for him... If thats a lie, shame on him... I mean the few coins i gave is alrdy a test of himself... And he took it...

So wud u have given, if its was oni a few coins that did not matter to u...

The final part of frenship...

The deciding question: How shallow, normal or strong your frenship is? And an important reminder, it doesn't always apply both ways to both parties...

Rodney taught me something that day, and the above line was it... We had onli become true frens during the perth trip...

And the 2nd last day, he popped me this question: can we become godbrothers? I was totally stunned.

And avoided the question by talking to yogi, but in the end i had to answer. And im sorry for that.

Then came a whole series of questions, about hu is elder, and him calling me 'gor' (hokkien for brother) thru the rest of the trip.

And i was not realli comfortable bcuz i din take it as seriously as him.

For that im sorry. Until the point where i tink my actions sort of gave me away, and he asked: 'Is it okay if i call u 'gor' in front of ur frens?'

i onli had one answer. No.

And we onli lasted as brothers for about a day. Thats where my topic shall begin.

Rodney, im sorry that the way i perceived our frenship was different from u.

In your eyes, perhaps u tot it was strong. In my eyes, its was onli normal. And to me, godbrothers or anything related had to be of strong frenship... So im sorry...

Im sorry if i had hurt u in anyway... Im sorry i din tink highly of our frenship...

If someone else like kwanwei, Zeng an, Irsyad or kenneth had asked me, i wud have gave it more consideration... For our case, its not there yet...

A shallow frenship, is one that you do not think highly of, neither do you realli bother, but u still do because the person treats u as his fren...

A normal frenship, is one that u are fine with, and the person thinks the same way...

A strong frenship, you realli care about each other, and nothing can break it apart...

People hu i tink share strong frenship with: Zengan, kwanwei, Irsyad

people hu i hope to have strong frenship with: nicolas, danial, linus, kenneth

For others out dere: keep holding on to our frenship...

that sums up frenship... good enough?